Yesterday went to VCH
hop to string ensemble bus to get a free ride
prepared everything early n left to eat in mac
the concert went smoothly except the video cam.... lol
went batt flat half way but manage to capture some vid.
sat with steven they are after that
crack some jokes there
the Doraemon song was the cutest in the concert
cus si liang carried the Doraemon around..
very cute sia.
someone dresses oso very adorable that night.
went back with strings to school

back to post again
lets say about tuesday
went out olivier, zul, jacob, dennis and the rest for outing
when to hougang plaza lan
steven joined in later
played CS for i think 2 hours plus
very cold sia
ate in kfc
den rush to PS to watch "The day the earth stood still"
the show is about an alien saving earth not human
but a woman trying to change the alien thoughts about the humans and the alien stop the distruction or the human kind....

went to vivo afterthat to eat dinner,
played arcade n met up with shawn, limin and bryant
den went home at 10...

TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!!!
Results Day!!!..... LOL

English 4
Combine humans' 3
E maths 1
A maths 1
Combine science 2
Art 2

DON READ THE THINGS I'M ABOUT TO TYPE BELOW BECAUSE I DON"T WANT U TO BE OFFENDED
i just don wan people to say thing behind my back
and i just don want to hurt u at all
this is just things i want to type it out but do not wan to say out

was shocked to see my results and get third
was nervous n scared in the start
it are the things that are too personal anyway
but my parents are like using my grades to get money n use it for their own use...
haix, at first emo cus my parents kept on looking down on me
say if i fail, i will go straight away to army
den keep on repeating.. fuck lar
everytime look down on me.
for this 16 years my parents never look up on me before.
its like no confidence on their own son to progess at all
its lik i'm their failure
though i relax at home n revise my work more relaxing than others
the thing ilearn are still in my head
i will only revise the things that i don't know
mostly i relax, watch tv after school just to relax my brain from work in school
they just think that i'm a slacker
stay back for art, they fuckingly say i play arcade.. fuck lar
i just had enough of this seriously

not a single time that my parents gave me courage
for 16 years, i never heard a word of encouragement
always words of insults and disgrace me in front of people
i just don want this anymore

i already sick and tired of this
sometimes when i'm ill, i just don tell them
i rather die now den to continue my life!!

i know its very inconsiderate of me
but i just showing how i feel
by the way i'm not very happy about my results
thats y i never laugh and smile alot
sorry to insult u guys

back to post
today off day,
yest bought gifts for a leaving staff
& for sharlyn
bored today
went to junction 8
orchard
plaza singapura
vivo city
compass point...

LOL
go many places today... haix without her
cus she went to malaysia to have a holiday for 5 days

okok back from a long time of work
blog must be rotting liao
this few days nothing much

haven't been going to cca
madam nashita haven't call anyone yet...
just bought r4 last week
n i quickly dl alot n play those games...
lol
working in pastamania was okay
most of them are n'level people
the pt staff are very N2
laugh alot n joke alot....
abit too tired for pasta sian ar...

i shall end here and wait for my next post .....
THANK YOU

Apologise to everyone for not updating...

cus busy working n tired to on com

last week, was okay

done with clb n olevels... hay!!!

NOMORE EXAMS FOR ME!!

now worrying result... NEVROUS!! LOL

HAHAHAS

Watch manajasar 2 with dearest last week

Was damn funny, must watch movie

"WHO SAY A PENGIUN CAN"T FLY....."

went to class chalet on tuesday,
heard many people were drunk.... lol

went in the afternoon saw the guys rotting...

aftertat went escape with dearest n rossy n joey came

played all ride except rainbow cus close

was very wet as we played the WILD & WET...

christine they all come afterthat den did a screaming competition.. lol

den went BBQ,

took pic with the class

n the class all wan to b drunk but not enough alcohol...
so far saw only anderlin drunk cus her face all red...

will my post here, mayb post nxt week... not sure

hmmm wad should i say now...
LOL, thinking ... hahas

okay lets talk about first day of work..
the manager is kind n the people around us are very kind..
meet new people n able to try pastamania food for the first times
cus never go there eat b4... lol
though its tiring for the legs,
its still fun cus when there is work,
i wun feel tired but when there are no one den can feel the strain in my legs..

Sunday,
the most lol thing ever
hahahas
dennis called me last min for a movie
with dennis, zul n jacob
went to ehub n watch 007... bond... lol
in the threate the most funniest thing happen,...
the bottle of soft drink that dennis bought was very gassy
n i think zul shake it alot because he kept shaking his bag
i open the drink slowly to release the gas
zul say i open better,
so he open slowly but jacob didnt know why we open the bottle slowly
so he open so quickly that the drink spill
jacob pass the drink to zul n the drinks wet zul's WHITE shorts... hahahas
den there is a stain...
jacob, dennis n me laugh lik crazy n the people around were smilling too
while some were thinking wads so funny about the shooting part... lol

when the show ended,
the stain was so obivious
laugh second round, lucky that zul got bag to cover...lol

Yesterday,
went for work becus pastamania short of people
den went to watch high musical 3 with dearest
the show was nice...

today
had clb listening compre
was very easy
went rp to eat n repair yao hua' sis spec cus broken....
went home slp all the way... lol

okay back to post.... today its gerlene birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DREAM CATCHER!!

dearest, rossy n i shared money to buy a gift for her

today, normal school day
b4 school went rp,
after school went rp 4 times
in total i went there 5 times sia
played basketball with zul n eswaran to wait for jacob
den go rp to buy glue for jacob hp cus the keypad coming out
wait for dearest to end her cca camp
hope she will play well in the concert

thats all for today happenings.... lol lets talk last few days

Sat n sun,
nothing much just playing rossy psp
went jb to pump petrol

on weekdays,
went out to buy gift for birthday gal
went to play
went to play basketball to keep fit :)

must be fit or next sure fat le... lol

yo back from a long rest of no post....
had been busy recently,
haix
it has been a bad past for me
hp lost
arguements with parents, bad friendship with neightbour
but some are good
when i manage to cycle
thanks to dennis
went to kl n malacca during weekend
went to had alot of fun there
in malaysia, chiong arcade like nobody busy...
cus its cheap except the psp sold there
bought alot of stuff
it has been very long that i went there
road change n the ppl there change
alot of weird people there
some dancing, smoking, doing weird stuff... lol
hahas
but eat alot food, funny thing is i never grow fat

had maths paper today n last friday
its was okay, not too hard
able to done...

shall end here, cus now having flu...
tagged me K :)

back to post
This week is a fun week

no exam no stress

when to look for jobs on mon

some of the managers look kind

but some are cunning

found some, hope could get one soon

tue was marking day

n had our one year aniversary celebration with dearest

went to suntrec n marina square

had lunch at sizzler

went to eat n shop ard

wed

had a boring day in school

watched movie with the na ppl in mrs brian class

All three na class still cant complete a prefect class... haix

went to kfc den to whitesand ..

its has been a long time i had post something
now i can post regularly

lets start by last week.
Thursday,
went to school even though that there is no school
studied geo in school with mrs tan n learn the whole chapter of development

Friday,
had e-maths n studied geo in rp
the paper was okay lar
had geo paper that was really ahh!!!
did wrong q but surpisingly,
i manage to do food even though invr studied that chapter
its mainly common sense...
LOL hahas!!

Sat& sun
went jb in the morning to pump petrol for my dad's car
bought cheap stuff
n eat alot... LOL
studied A-maths at night
studied until i realised my mistakes..

sun woke up early to acc my mum to market...
tiring but still nid to study for a-maths..
chiong like hell
n scared mind-blank

Mon& tue
had A-maths paper
b4 that went to meet dearest
chatted alot n taste her cooking skills
she did a great job
its tasty
after the paper, my n'levels are all over.. YAY!!!!
hahahas
but still got e-maths & clb.. Sian
nvm clb no nid study
e-maths can slowly concentrate

went to future park with rossy to relax after a-maths
den played basketball
but at home equal to sian again cus nth to do....

TODAY
cook chicken teriyaki
lets dearest try, not sure whether nice or not...
went to ang mo kio hub with her
shop ard n played arcade
afterthat send her home but rain
both of us were wet...

exam are almost over for me
hope next to have even more fun time..

this are some of the pic i took at kusu island... there are more...

This week is exam week
equals to stress..
sat n sun chiong to study combine science n maths
last week choing to finish art
friday,
was worried for dearest,
cus she wasn't feeling well

Yesterday
was the pressurising day
5 papers
4 for combine science n 1 for E-maths
must score well in those to push my grades

today,
art... last night, fifi did last minute work as usual
6 hours of art prep work time
wow... LOL
had art exam just now
den went vivo with dearest..

okay,

this week nothing much happen..

only planning bbq for the class

poor yasmeen to plan n have stress...

went to raffles place on tue

with dearest n veena
i will post pic of wad i take... lol

emo alot this week,
haix.. just hope all the problems will go away.

oya some pic that might make u laugh... LOL

Lets talk about thursday, friday n today...

Thursday,
Dearest wasn't in school cus she was no available to come to school...
Pe, the guys went to play soccer..
den leg pain...
head pain
& Stomach PAIN!!!
lesson was normal..
and went home early to study

Friday,
another day of the same..
manage to master the rubics cube le..
its took me four days jt to rmb zul steps...
after school went to eat in cp with dearest and den went home le...

Today,
went jb to put petrol
came back to Singapore early..
took afew pics of my house for art N'level paper 2.
went parkway
enter a arcade n saw afew small children very pro in driving cars...
played with them....
luckily i beat them...
den ur parents not happy
call for second round...
still win...
den third n fourth...
Haix same result... LOL

Went to the Malay village after that
bought Malay cuisine for dinner
den at home prepare to eat mooncake for mooncake festival

wow now the moon is big and round...

Hello people...
back to post again
sorry for late updates

last week was the first few exams for N'LEVEL!!!
n its our Holiday too!!!

sadly manage to enjoy very little cus most of the time is studying
Tues, was mother tongue but i don have
Wed, was SS
was difficult but manage to finish..

Thursday,
ENGLISH PAPER was okay
but now i worry cus just this mon,
mrs brian let us see the her answers, for paper2
sure die... alot of mistakes...
must hope paper 1& 3 pull me up..

Weekend, nothing much
only went out...

this week, was okay..
Monday n tuesday was the same...
Wed went to hougang mall with dearest n veena
den to veena went home n went to cp with dearest

okay now to post..
cus now is a special event..
those who know should know y...

oya, forgot to say on wed...
all held hidayah for the fine lady... LOL
okok better not pester her with this
or she will kill me
... hahas

back to thursday n friday....
nothing much,
didn't do much after school
hav a long walk on friday
don know for wad sia...
only make me tired...
only friday sent dearest to tampines..

Sat,
went to jb to eat n buy mooncake..
finally i got my chocolate mooncake.. yay
den went to gelang serai...
saw fireworks but i cant take pic cus batt flat... sad
go there eat malay food as night supper
i guess this month sure put on weight le..

okay now lets talk about today...
today is the day that i think my whole class know
my friends in school n the sos family know y..

time flies so fast..
it only felt like only afew months
during this one year,
many thing had happen,
its has been fun
though there are bad times, there more good times together

Lastly to dearest,
Hope to last long..
n i will never u go...
I Love You <3

back to posting
now i think i will update every week
sorry people...

lets talk about wad happen week
last week mr ng didnt come...
in art slack n chat but still got do work..
got all the papers back except art...
hope art pass >.<

Thursday, went out with olivier...
long time nvr emo with him..
he such a good friend to emo with... lol
had a chat with his counselor who is the one that organise the amazing race
everyone still can rmb me...
wow
chated den went home cus too sleepy... ZZZZ

On fri, help olivier they all in the environment thingy...
search for the bin n we found it at the cosmic wave room
where all the n'level dnt work are... n we are restricted from entering..
the rest went to dunman
while went to tpm to shop...
long time never go there le..
n plan with them for the actual day which was on sat
when they found me in mac...

Sat,
fetch zul, olivier & dearest to dunman sec..
had a slpy talk
but a delicious receiption... LOL
olivier n i ate 3 rounds...
but still hungry n ate cheese cake with the rest..
the bin was one of the main attraction as lots off people came to the booth
everyone took turns to explain..

den got lucky draw..
so lucky won a cup n a flask
but the flask i gave it to zul cus i got alot at home..
n i c him, he look like he want...

went to vivo afterthat...
with dearest..
shop & play water again.. lol
den went home cus too slpy le...

sun, study lorx...

Mon,
school was normal..
got suan by mr aw... haix
den went to cp buy thing n back to school again to study geo..

tue,
Ytd, right hand pain cus too tired reaching for the ball during the captain ball game..
after school went to physic class..
den went to rp to meet steven n the rest
played psp dam funny sia..
den meet olivier at the shop n save kopi shop to eat..
dennis n steven came later
n went to school again for evening class

do a maths with shidan dennis
woah, mr aw very busy cus he dealing with aloy of people
but his mind is like maths god..
any question he can all do...
he was on form ytd...

den went home at 9 cus school at 9...

Sorry people for not posting lately
okay me share with u wad i did this past few days...

last week,
had prelims...
stress n pressure...
hardly have time to post...
went out with dearest to places to destress n study...

Art is stressing,
first coursework den prelim now paper2 coming...
Maths n science is oso stressing too...

mr aw having high expectations in his class

phy teacher want me to score a1

chem have no idea...

got back geo...

must buck up... cus just pass
don know about Social studies...

Today,

went with dearest to vivo..

had fun at water at last floor of vivo...

Yo back to post....

okay lets talk about my birthday...
Now sixteen le...
can watch nc16... lol
Thx guys for wishing me a happy birthday..

N special thanks to dearest who gave me a great birthday
Thank dear for the present n the cake..
love u<3

At night, went to resturant to eat..
the food was delicious..
i think my parents are tryingto make up for me...

Okay had prelims this week,
english's speech writing n compo was okay
paper 2 was okay too.. lol
, SS, this subject sure fail.. second Q anyhow do.. 4b write crap n only write for 2lines
& mother tongue, CLB' letter writing was easy but the paper 2 was okay...
they were okay not hard nor easy...

Today,
ndp in sch was okay,
had a fun carnival..
played alot of games..
first time played the air riffle, it was heavy but was fun to shoot...
all shot suck except the last shot..
the longest n accurrate shot of all
a bull's eye...
had a gift..
played olivier shates... so long never play le, was nervous... LOL hahahas

went out to bugis n vivocity with dearest after school
watch money no enough 2 after eating..
the show was funny n touching..
afterthat we went home le..


this week was a fun week
enjoyed myself alot..
hope to wish to have this much fun everyday..

Okay back to another post,
sorry that its took a long time to make another post..
its because of art n problem i am having in my life..

Sometimes, the closest ones like the ones whom had been with me don't know wad i been through n they are my parents.. they might think the past was like the present day. At times, expectations n boldness irritates me a lot.. I know my dad came from a good school , top in maths n my mom graduated, got 4th in level for her final year exams in collages.

I just don't know why my parents would of me this way.. sometimes, they think i got 4th in class is just by luck n not by the effort i did to bring me through this far..

I had been working freaking hard for the past times, many of my friends knew but my parents don't..
Furthermore they always compare with me with my cousins...
I know they are graduates now as they are 2o plus already
n i know they did relax n study with friends too like wad they told me.

My parents always think i been going out hanging around doing nuisance stuff like wad gangster in singpaore are doing..

Though i slack at home because i m tired, most of the time in school, i have been studying n at times i went to the library or to neighbour house to study n give tuition to young kids.

My life is dam stressful n wished not to live in..
U may see me cheerful n hypo in school or outside but at home, i just a neglected person who doesn't gain trust from my parents.. I always make myself happy just to enlighten my mood from the darkness i have been having...
I just get so fuck up want to brust to anger n tears in front of them..
feel like venging my anger out but its a show of respect towards them....

Anyway art is the second problem that all of the art students are having too.. It occupy most of our after school time n doesn't give us time to study..
Mr Chicken rice always think that we slow..
To actual facts!!
He always neglect us as he nvr turn up for the extra class he made for us..
He such a irritating person... at least mr loh still makes the effort to help three classes unlike someone who always side the o'level students...


Just going to end here..
Well afew 3 more days till i 16 :)
yay.. lol
Hope next week wouldn't be as worst as last week as i had enough already..

Yo people, sorry for the long period of not posting regularly
Mon, was an okay
teacher dress in many different form of cultural costume
mr javiour is dam funny acting as a lady...
congrats to the teachers who won :)

tuesday, sadly today last day of mr huo
haix, another good teacher gone..
i wan chicken to fly away
not mr huo...
anyway, he came back today n tol us abt his nie exp..

today, had maths paper2 quite difficult n confusing..
don know whether can score high.
hope i can..

yo hasnt been posting much

was in art room all day...

sian ar

anyway, lets talk about wad happen this few day in my life...

simply easy to tel n end

i spend time with dear

eat n sleep as usual

LOL...

oya, wed was fifi bdae

dam funny in eng class

alot of ppl surround him...
now studying for maths
as prelim is next week
sian

Hasn't been posting for so long...
Cus of art, went to art room everyday this week
Did my coursework n made many changes to my work..
almost this week, had 4 meals a day... lol
going fat i think
school is now getting more sick this starting of the month
hidayah gave me n eye opener
ytd was funny abt the chicken invading earth.... lol hahas
all the art students except some plus rohaizad, joke around n its was funny cus of some songs in youtube...

tdy another one,
dexter vs yasmeen..
i pity yasmine as she a gal being bullied by a guy
dexter should know his limits as he is in class
n being a gentleman, he shouldn't embarrass jasmeen till so wad nia...
haix

Oral are today...
mon is abt swimming
tue is abt shopping
today oral is abt babies... lol
wow question were weird n the of all i lied to the teachers some q.. hahahas
saw some mark but not confirm whether its finally cus alot of the people got 26,27 or 28
Not sure got c any 30+...
after orals went to rp den send dearest home..
At home nth much happen.. lol
Prelims are coming soon
n art nid to pass up next 3 weeks.. die

back to post.. sch was normal..
had one of the funny photo taking...
cus rossy falling as fifi from the back push everyone to fall the beanch..... lol
had lots of free time in maths... cus mr aw went for photo taking.
after sch, went geo surprisingly only 4 came... i tik the teacher must b sad.
went to cp with dearest afterthat to library..
send her home n manage in time to watch da changjin... lol


Today it our 10th monthsary.
though there's no 31st, i take every end of the month to b our monthsary
It has gone better as time goes by
though we quarrel, we seem to communicate well n end up well
thus helping each other up, make us closer..
im sorry to make u upset at times
i hope that we will help & love one another always.
i oso hope to last long with u.
& to b great guy to b with n enjoy :)

Lastly, I Love U <3

wad an unlucky day i had on thursday..
wth, i accidently hit my teeth with my own knee
haix lets just forget about it..
now nid to endure pain.. n take proper medication n cure the pain
Sorry people that i made u worry alot esp dearest.

today had oral practice,
mdm nashita gave lots of goood n bad comment but must improve
went to hougang mall with dearest den went home le

School has just reopen... prelims are coming liao.. must study

Mon,
got back specimem paper n got 60/80 not bad still got A1 :X
laugh alot in physic class... lol hahahas cus of a movie n some funny incidents in the holidays...
went tpm after school with dearest n sent her home :)

tues,
school was usual..
but i gain 1cm n lose 2kg... amazing its my first time losing weight n i don know how i did it as i didnt exercise n furthermore i ate alot... lol strange sia..
went for art after sch n went back home afterthat..

Wed,
fetch dearest to sch, n art was first...
luckily mr ng was in a good mood n he help everyone as much as he could...
Finally my fish got accepted n my company logo...
lesson as usual... after school, went art den went hougang mall..
sent dearest back home... Did cooking today... lol

last week of the holidays people...
We are going back to school le, n stress are on their way... lol

Mon,
went to vivo with dearest, olivier, zul, peck gek & ms chang...
ate in secret recipe den walk ard n oso went to sentosa
played table tennis there den came home late evening..
the outing was planned well because not are were enjoying..

tuesday,
went back to school for maths mock n art...
ordered pizza in school n eat with dearest, hidayah, gerlene & veena
afterthat all went orchard except gerlene...
walk from ps to far east den back to ps... woah long walk
afterthat sent dearest home..

Wed,
the same but b4 maths went to rp eat breadfast with dennis n rohaizad..
after maths back to rp to eat with bryant n steven
after art backto rp again to eat with dearest... lol
go rp mac 3times..LOL!!

Thurs,
went art den eat in rp kfc cus tired of mac....
meet yanling n pg in cp, let the gals talk while i go summer shopping... lol
quite tiring thought...
den went home le...

Friday,
an okok day cus did nothing link to studies...
went to collect passport den went back home le
so sian at home... nothing much to do.... i wana go out but no $$ to enjoy arcade.
call me if anyone want to go out cus im bored at home... =.=



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Im worried abt us all this while
at times having a hard time to breathe
n my mind just cant stop thinking of u
i apologise to make u upset at times
i knw i have been thinking too much at times
its because i worrried something bad might happen to us
n u might let me go..
i just don want u to be upset about me.

hey guys back to post


Wed, had physic with dearest, siew ting, musturah.. Thx to Mrs pereira :)
den went to PS n shop with dearest.


Thur, went to vivo with dearest. Shop around & watch kungfu panda
really funny.. i laugh my heart out sia...

Friday, nothing much just went to renew passport..
den went bugis, shop awhile..

well lets end here...

Back to post...
rotting here as my parents dont allow me to go out... haix sian
but tomorrow can go out le
zzzzz, abit unwell this few days..
have sore cough n flu at the same time... took 3panadol yesterday... wow but still cant slp
Did lots of housework the past few days after coming back from melaka...
oso study abit on physic and E & A maths
bored at home sia,, wana go out but cant... sorry olivier..

okay, back to post from a tiring trip to melaka...

Woke up early to reach melaka early..
use the highway n got sian... lucky got ipod n ds with me to keep me occupied..
At melaka, ate chicken rice ball.. those rice balls are tasty sia.. a most try dish..
went around melaka.. go lots of sightseeing.. went shopping with my parents till i got sian so i went arcade n play initial D...
i found out that melaka change alot n more shopping mall are built..
stay in mahkota hotel,, the room isnt small as there is a small living room but the bed is small...



the next day, had a heavy breadfast n check out... went to the beach n bought durian.. bought alot of stuff back.. lol den off to the highway, driving in slowly back to singapore..





here are some pictures...

Lasty to dearest;

hope u had fun in KL, will miss u... takecare<3

Back to post, on mon & tues was my CCA camp...
Haix, all not n2 enough... all the upper sec not n2 n den the lower sec r blur blur wan...
all the IC oso never turn up ... wtf larx.. only randy, lijin n me setting up all the games
i actually emoed in the start but in order to make the camp hypo, so i must forced myself to do it. haix.. lucky it works or i will just go back home..
i find that all my sec2 are useless accept some.. sec1s thought they are blur, still can make it as they are commited to the club.
the only weakness of the new pres is he cant have enough power to command people but i must still make shout louder...lol
okay back to camp..
first day got mini games cause wee soon never come,
i set up everything...
went to bury the tripot stand in the sand, tied the wires in the hall n hide the mic somewhere in hall... lol
den cher hui n the other seniors came...
we take some makers n hide it everywhere in the school....
call all the lower sec to find,.. hahahas some cant reach cause too high... lol
played catching with them n got owned....
played captainball n trashed the lower sec.. hahas lol

second day,
tired but the camp must go on..
watch movie den plan for the lower sec for amzing race.
i station to puggol park n the mission is: to run one round ard the lake..
den the last station is to find me outside hougang mall.. lol the team had to take alot of time to find me.. i nearly slpt sia..
played water game after that.. then dennis throw a water bomb to jacob but jacob move, the water bomb smashed the window.. lol dennis need to pay 30 bucks
Had bbq, den went to basketball court to play.. afterthat, fucking hell 7 huge people tao pok me somemore, i just eat.. i nearly vomit nia. had stomach n back pain afterthat...
Saw madam nashita daughter,,, she veri cute.. the tap no water, she still want that tap water not what her mom gave.. lol
den she take zul as her brother.. call zul to follow her whereever she go, carry her everywhere.. lol den zul must sent her home.. hahas
went back home ard 10, veri tired n slpt straight away...

well lets end here...

Hello people

Yesterday tiring day,

went for amazing race... went one raffles quay where the starting line is

den went to raffles park to find first clue..

first clue is breaking ice...

den went to eunos collect 80kg of newspaper

aftertthat went to bukit gombak to do some kind of rope thing till zul hav to hug another guys... lol hahahas

off to botanica garden to do natural quiz n fear factor where we have to eat worms n raw veges...

gone to bishanh to fish for prawns till zul n i slept..

finished the race second in a close battle n won an ipod shuffle... YAYs!!!

lets talk about today

had morning wake up call saying that my battlefeild account tio hack

den had to explain myself to gf..

emoed my way to malaysia n immigration officer still dare ask me y i emo... bt i just ignore him

went to orchard den to parkway parade,, played arcade n search for stuff..

went back home kana whack by a drunken bastard to came to me n said "hi" den punch my stomach.. i vomit n punch tat guy back.

now feeling abit unwell n tired..

Hello people!!! LOL
Nowadays, seem to b hypo active lately..
Sorry for no update n lately don not online as i was busy n tired...
Okay lets chat about stuff that happens not long ago....
last week was a neutral week. Nothing bad happen
but i broke a record of talking to gf for 5hr but i felt its was just a short while...

OKAY, monday was the most memorable day ever in my life,
lets start with my weirdest arcade exp...
while driving, i still can sms n call people...
i apologise for the misunderstanding... sorry, had too much attention on the road.

Den siew ting, hwee ping & i decided to create a birthday party for my dearest.
Rohaizad came to cp n bought cake with me
den amazingly alot of people came... wow, dennis, jacob, celena, gerlene, liu yun, kang jie n her bf came... O.o
As promise i make her a memorable birthday party. :)
Give her the gift n help her put it on
& we shall nvr forget this day...
went hougang mall n den sent dearest home

Tuesday, had a normal maths mock exam even thought having an exam in the hall is scary... lol
Had oral n the examiner was mr NG aka my art teacher... lol
first one to go as im the time keeper..
had lunch with dearest
den had art
went back home, to my surprise, my cousin came to celebrate my dad birthday..
went to Feast @east to eat buffet..
went drunk at night, walking left n right as if the floor is unstable.. LOL

Okay for today, done housework n stuff... tiring but still can survive
Went to rp to meet dearest so that can go art together
surprisely we had thinking...
saw 4n2 art, they are fast n saw that they are almost done..
wow, must chiong le no slagger le..
Went to hougang mall to return book den went home le..

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Happy sweet sixteen dearest, hope u will have an exciting year ahead.
Hope u lurve the gift n feel happy about the party eventhought its an unforgetful day ever
Don emo k, when there is problems try tell me. smile always k
hope u will b happy being with me.

Yo back to post.
This week, school was normal.. nothing bad happen.
Heard that Mr Soong leave nvss cus of master degree.. Oooo, common trend already le. A lot of people in Singapore are going for masters including Mr Joseph Ng.
Nothing much to say about today..
got result n den mr aw talk to my dad..
Both of them gang up on me & pressurise me.. Sian
Kana insult for english & maths.. wtf
Haix, better work harder le.. Zzzzz
Nowadays, bored at home... nothing much to do
only use com, play ds, eat, sleep & chat on phone to enlighten my mood.

Don know why i seem to felt something bad is going to happen
even when problems are settle
relationship are getting beta
feeling trouble n puzzling at the same time
thinking of precautions
n maintaining a beta life

Yesterday,
did alot of housework
play com in afternoon
watch movie on9.. haix having a boring life as i hav to do stuff at home n unable to go out
waited for my mom to come back from philippine n went to explore terminal2
it has been a long time tat i went there as i only go terminal 1 only... zzz


Today had a bad start, woke up at 9 kane scolding
den after a while, use hp oso scold
don talk much oso scold
play ds oso scold
don know wad my parents wan sia...
went to temple to pray den went to vivo
cus my mom just came back from philippine,
she miss shopping in singapore so she shop almost all the shop and bought alot of stuff...
shop for 2.5hr till my leg cramp... haix
In vivo, i emo abit but went to arcade to brighten myself
Don know wad kept my mind puzzling of stuff
haix just feel stress, tired & so hurtful even after exams

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To dearest one:
Sometimes, i cant control my words
at times words might just blurt out without thinking
I know that its a unforgivable n unforgettable thing
n know that u hate me in the bottom of ur heart n waiting for the right time to say that phrase
I wan u to have a memorable birthday n not let the past to happen again to let u suffer
I know my mistake n i wad i did it was really too much
I sincerely apologise for what i done
I promise not to hurt u again n i meant it
Now im having abit of physical problems
my health is currently deteriorating n felt like dying as i cant breath well
but if there is any problems, i still b there to b ur listener
& support u in ways.
i will always b by ur side encouraging u

Yo back to post.... Zzz
Lately, having the same problems over n over again
Personal problems turn even more challenging n stressful.. Ahhhh! it frustrating
In school, emo n having a hard time breathing... Zzz
don know whether the air is too dense or whatever..
Thx bros for cheering me up with im down even thought I'm the one who laugh n make a fool of myself n make u guys laugh... LOL
N i want to show my gratitude to my friend whom i talk to, he tell me how to calm down & consult me.. i think he is fit to a counselor...

Problem are slowly solved n there is someone on the same boat as me..
She help me all the time & i am grateful to have her as my gf.
Hope we don argue any more already. i hope we can last long & share our sorrow together
We must talk more often & we will understand beta..

okay enough of me saying how emo im this past few days....
now for my MYE result,
all subs pass. YAY!!
But don know y still not happy with it...
now must work even harder.. As i going to aim to get 5 point below for N'level.
cause i only get 8 points which is risky..

Today, health problem getting worst in school but im now getting beta after seeing a chinese doctor who Eeeek medicine... the taste sux but must ren to cure..
went to hougang mall wit gf to eat n walk ard,
saw two mediacorp artist there, i tik they promoting hougang mall n the shop there...
went back home aftertat den played need for speed carbon which lend me..

i want to live a life no problem if that is possible but i know its impossible..
if there is such life,
that person living it will be lucky.

Today,
Had elective module start from 8am
did finish the project tat was needed to be done in just a day.
Watch anime & movies in the com lab to keep zahier, jonathan n me occupied
while the rest of the student just play gta n other online games... LOL
after module, zahier went to get the soccer ball from NCC room den we played soccer n captain ball with some NCC guys..
Went to downtown east to calm my mind by playing arcade and found that my maximum tune skill is improving n on the form to complete the game. but need $$$ money... Haix
afterthat visit gf n walked ard ws n entered the library for research...
& went back home n relax n slp.

Last night, was one of the most emoing night ever felt after a long time,
i cried in my heart, abit tears came out n felt like shouting out loud n punching something to let all my misery out as i cant take it anymore.. AHHH!!!
Told my probs to gf, zul, olivier & dennis, they tried cheering me up as they told me that when i emoed, it will affect them badly.. Sorry guys
now wadever my uncle said is truth
the happiest n hypo person can have the saddest n miserable life of all
I felt pressurise everytime & everywhere i go.
at least there is someone who is as the same boat as me.
i am not emoing because of the insult of my friends gave. So don worry zul its not ur fault.

I am changing for the better n making up for my mistakes i've done
I apologise of wad happen in the past n i never wan it to happen again n affect us again
I didn't meant to lie to u
i really meant my words n assure that in case of urgency i will b there for u
hope u just trust me for another time

Yo back to post
MYE are finally over
no more pressure for the time being
just have to wait for prelim & "N"n "O" lvl
that sure stress.. haix
Today have finally paper : Art.. did ok for prep work
on the final work, have no mood to do at all
got insulted by mrs tay somemore.. hais no motivation to do work well
went out wit gf, dennis & zul to hougang mall to buy gifts
den went to ljs to eat.. when finish eating zul did something bad..(don wan to say)
zul & dennis left aftertat, den went to acc gf to ps..
walk around & talk
den both of us veri tired till we went back le..

i terribly sorry to hurt u
i m irritated of that person to spread the situation out
BAD happenings today,
my heart is crying inside n feel like dying
i just feel tat i not suit to live this life wit tons of misery

Finally the last paper tmr...
can b oso the one that so die wan.. haix
do 5 pieces of prep den need to do alot of stuff... sian ar
Ytd, at home do for awhile that sian go use com oso sian
once sian sometimes i wun talk much den surely veri slpy.. zzzz
today went jb just to follow my dad put petrol den buy some stuff..
sian ar, play ds play com, watch tv & anime n read manga oso sian..
why this weekend so sian... haix
anyway don know whether tmr the guys r going bowling or not..

Nowadays thing are back to normal
but dont know why can get so emotional at times
no probs to solve but need to change my character

At times i make u laugh n happy,
but i seriously apologise that i make u even worst
i meant my word on that night seriously
as it came out from my heart
hope u meant it too

Another bad exam for me
Having no confidence that i can get back my old result for a-maths
the paper was difficult n confusing.. make lots if careless mistake
n realise the way to solve it.
went wit gf to library today
do art prep, find pic from books.
watch anime to cheer myself.
Now felt contented now after talking n saying out how i feel.

Time flies fast nowadays,
had maths n physic paper.
SS sure die cus anyhow do
Nowadays feeling down lately, n i cant help it
althought sometimes, my friends make laugh just to cheer me up.
at home i will feel abit down.
today, went out to library to study
chatted here n there, talking about stuff
i scared of stuff going to happen nxt week
i heard frm people tat something might to me n affect me
it also can b hurtful
but no matter wad i m staying with my plans.

Today is a normal day for me..
Studied maths in morning den had a hair cut
althought my hair at the side r short but the front is still long.. LOL
went bugis n saw alot of things change
didnt study for ss n i tik will sure fail le

Yoyo, back to another post..
today went to cp to play maximum tune 3 n my skills are back... lol
meet gf n pg den rohaizad came late..
Studied maths till headache den my eye turn red... lol
Went back home saw one goldfish die in my fish tank, haix
studied more maths till sian liao...

to end my post,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SOONG & MRS BRIAN :)

hello guys back to post again... lol

Went to school early, cus my dad have to do stuff that why i came early.... Saw the prefect rehearsal n surpise to see alot of them remember me after quiting for two years amazing.
Acting as mr lim n willian act as GOH.
Went to rp to eat with gf,
saw the psp group n christine group oso in mac,
i feel that talking face to face is beta den msg,
had two hours of school den went hall to see the prefect investiture.
saw one of the funniest dance cus my friend dance wrong on center stage... hahahas lol
went to elect module aftertat..
In module, zahier, fifi, jonathan & i form a group to create a game but instead of doing, we either playing or watching prince of tennis... lol
Went home wit fifi, as fifi wan to go to the terminal to go home as he was bored... lol

Happy 8th month<3
we must end all the bad stuff n talk more.

helo

Yoyo back to post how the first two exam was like..

Monday, had english mid-year exam.. compo was okay but the letter writing was abit hard... It was a formal writing combined with a report as it is tell to the newspaper.. Paper 2 is okay, i didnt find the close passage was difficult.. comprehension was fined too..
Went to hougang mall LJS to eat with Gf , veena & pg... went library aftertat... went out afew times to talk to friends n saw steven n his gf... LOL aftertat went home to read up chinese...

Today, came to school in a blur n pale state after wad rossy told that i look like tat... Chinese compo was easy as we only need to do one q but Shida n i did two... lol Paper 2 abit difficult don understand abit but manage to complete in 30 mins n sleep for the rest of the period. Had listening n oral den settle some prob b4 tat which enlighted my mood... had lunch in rp with Gf n pg den christine n zoe came.. send gf to busstop n talk den went home le..

i nvr wan to hurt ur feeling
i just wana last long
i don wan to let go
i apologise for wad i said tat night.

okay guys back to post... Exams are coming so must JIAYOUS!!!!

Speech day went smooth, n i revceive two awards.. One from CCA & the other from A-maths..

took pics with stage crew n gf n rossy... went in the AVA n saw choir super hypo... on mon, someone will get pay back cus i think 8 people from PA & back stage tao pok me.. U R WILL DIE

here are some pics

Nothing much to post about this week..
School was normal & the speech day rehearsal on monday went well..
didn't eat lunch on monday n felt hungry n weak during the rehearsal..
After school, went to cp with gf den pg came to make ez-link but sadly cant go there make must go to hougang mall make...

Tuesday school was well okay, scored A's for both physic & A-maths. After school, went to have stroll with rohaizad n talk about the stuff happen in the past like an amazing flashback. Went back home to study n....

I reflected on wad i did which was wrong..
My mind was in a mess n worried for the worst might happen..
I really didnt aspect this to happen but i seriously apologise of my doings
as i was abit childish n forgot the most important thing between us..
without it, we will never b together.
Althought i made u angry at times,
i apologise n hope u will forgive me.
now i realised that im still abit imature n blur at times.
hope u can just give me one more chance.

yo guys tell wad happen this few days ago...

Sat,
Went out wit all the SOS members to suntec... went to food court to eat den had swensen ice-creams... renew my maximum tune3 card n played arcade... went round in suntec with GF den sent her home & go home le...

Mon,
went to give out flyers again... sian ar but still get 2hrs of cip. went to blk 158 n saw alot of weird doors like one with alot of flyers ( i think no one staying), another one which has three door bell which i don know which bell link to which one... hahahas & still got a few weird like door...

Tue,
went hougang mall with GF after school, eat in kopitiam den pg & zhiying came... went library n borrow books n studied there.. pg don understand the way i teach maths.. hahahas lol

Wed,
Had a bad speech day rehearsal, the prize giving was smooth but the concert was a disaster... PA boys either didnt on the mic or just didnt listen to comments from teachers & me... i told them to on the mic 1 n yet they just heck care... so after the everything they got lecture n i just heck care them n let them been scolded esp jonathan think he so pro but he not... backstage crew did well just need to lower down the volume of putinhg chairs can le...

Thur,
round 2 of scolding from ms zoo, haix don know y crystal oso kana... scolded all the PA boys cause they think the fault was our intructor, who is ms zoo husband.. I explain abit to calm her down n let my jrs to go off for class. but i think over all is Hansel & jonathan fault as they are in charge...

Went to the "we will rock u" concert.. play ds n psp all the way to esplanade. while waiting for the door to enter, zul, hanyi, dennis & i saw a room call the TALL ROOM.. hahahas i think its for TALL people. HAHAHAs
the show end 11 plus n reach home at 11.30.. watch the contender which was cool with all the punching n kicking...lol

Today,
finally talk about today cus today nothing much happen... Went to hougang mall with gf n eat.. chatted n laugh alot & den go to library to study.. Send her to bustop den went back home..
watch manga n anime before sleeping cus bored but exam are drawing near sian..

here are some pics in esplanade...

This week was a better, everything seem to b solve n having no prob but i still emo during maths lesson & i don know y... I felt that i m going back to my hyper studying mood which i was last year... Behaving as before is better, results are improving & relationship growing...

Speech day is drawing near, n i m having 3 jobs in one go... i think i might not survive next wed...
Had Nafa today, got two shocking result that my sit-ups n sit&reach are excellent.. when gym before attending nafa den my body got warm up n ready for nafa...
i think i got gold if i not wrong...Yay!!

I hope the closest ones wouldn't feel bad with me, just want to have a good life from now on.. Even if i hurt u, i m sorry for i done & hope u wouldn't hate me for my doings

This week was not a good week for me... every time seem to have bad stuff will happen to me. Problems here n there but it has been resolve after apologising... Anyway i don wan think about the bad stuff that happen in the past but wan to look forward to the future n have a better life.

Many people said that I'm dying or giving them bad attitude, i was actually sad on the inside, hiding my tears & felt a bit emotional... i never felt such sadness before, even if my maths fail or the most precious being stolen or missing, i wouldn't felt that sad.. now times have change, people can change anytime...

Luckily, i went to my neighbour's house to celebrate my neighbour's birthday yesterday... played alot of april fool frank... had alot of fun till my laugher came back.. played basketball with a tall china guy, the funniest thing was when he tried to slam dunk, he bang his head to the board... HAHAHAHAs its dam funny, he thought he so pro but he isn't.. I thrash him 15:5 Yay :)
played block catching, althought its tiring, its still fun cus there are alot of people n we played the whole block...

Today, went shopping with my mom...Tiring but still okay cus we eat sushi in sakae.. the food is delicious... LOL

Hey guys, bored n now emoing nothing to do so post anyway someone called me to update...
School was normal, had the most tiring n not mood two days since yesterday..
Monday
Had 2.4km test finish with a timing of 11.31 minutes... Yay got improve from last year :)
Had CCA cip to do for only 2hrs. Went wit zul, dennis & JJ to a block of seng kang area. our job were to give flyers to the blocks... Fifi & jacob came too... mdm nashita gave us flyers n we chiong to the block till 6pm...
Tuesday
dam tired n legs start to cramp causing me to b more weak as time goes by...
chest ache felt like knifes stabbing my heart & making me hard to breath.
went out hougang mall with Gf n pg, had a big lunch n acc them to shop n saw indah...
April fools day, wasn't my day as i never felt both physically n emotionally pain before.
i hope the next day will be a better day for me..
i felt that i m dying as wad alot of friend commented...
~EMO~

Yo here to post some stuff that happen the past week...
On monday, nth much happen n have ss & geo test... sure fail de
Had CCA only just 13mins, the thing we did is to play CS... Fifi oso joined in, LOL

Tuesday, heard that 2.4 nafa test is nxt week.. sian need to chiong liao. ran 1km, got a timing of 4min 26 sec.. not bad alrdy lar anyway that should b my fastest timing..

Wed, have the first day of motivation camp, it should motivate the class to study... the first day, okok larx the lecturer not bad, quite cheerful & he make everything seem to have sense... the most fun stuff was the chapara cus i spa wit zul & we had fun... the funniest thing was safiee & his friend when they kept slapping each other.... lol HAHAHAs
Had chest pain after the camp & felt lik vomiting but luckily didnt... went for the speech day rehearsal, being half backstage, half PA... lol

Thur, second day of camp & the first day for the sec2s having their sec2 camp... we had a competition among the whole NA of the egg protection thingy... Gf, rossy, pg & me were on the same group.. we make the structure n manage to survive on the 1st floor but not on the second... haha the egg break... had to best fight wit olivier in chapara... hahahas he being trash by me...lol went mac to had lunch. watch the boring movie i ever had after school, which a documentary about global warming... sian still got test about it nxt week. DIE nvr understand that show.

Fri, got lecture by mr ng for art... haix but still pass my CA, phew. after school waited for GF, n went together to cp to meet the sos family. had lunch in jack places n met new friends. most of them are northvista but only 1 is not... had alot of nonsense jokes to tel.. hahas aftertat accompany ken, yanling & pg shop ard cp den go home le...

finally today, had a tough eng mock exam but still manage to do finish... went rp to had lunch wit gf n friends... stay in mac for 2 long hrs... send her back home aftertat den went home read manga n watch anime....

pulau ubin

Hey yo guys back to another post today went to geo field trip, but starting was veri sian cus too tired... Zzzzz

went to changi village to learn headland, bay n breakwater... sadly after awhile, Gf not feeling well. she look pale, bought for her hot milo to warm her up :)

had boatrides & saw alot of different kinds of trees & plants in pulau ubin. studied about coastal n other stuff...

went to eat in changi village nasi lemak & enjoy the the view afterthat.

went to rossy hse wit Gf & pg n played the soccer thingy... hahahas it was fun LOL

den went home le..

Here are pics of today's trip