Okay back to another post,
sorry that its took a long time to make another post..
its because of art n problem i am having in my life..

Sometimes, the closest ones like the ones whom had been with me don't know wad i been through n they are my parents.. they might think the past was like the present day. At times, expectations n boldness irritates me a lot.. I know my dad came from a good school , top in maths n my mom graduated, got 4th in level for her final year exams in collages.

I just don't know why my parents would of me this way.. sometimes, they think i got 4th in class is just by luck n not by the effort i did to bring me through this far..

I had been working freaking hard for the past times, many of my friends knew but my parents don't..
Furthermore they always compare with me with my cousins...
I know they are graduates now as they are 2o plus already
n i know they did relax n study with friends too like wad they told me.

My parents always think i been going out hanging around doing nuisance stuff like wad gangster in singpaore are doing..

Though i slack at home because i m tired, most of the time in school, i have been studying n at times i went to the library or to neighbour house to study n give tuition to young kids.

My life is dam stressful n wished not to live in..
U may see me cheerful n hypo in school or outside but at home, i just a neglected person who doesn't gain trust from my parents.. I always make myself happy just to enlighten my mood from the darkness i have been having...
I just get so fuck up want to brust to anger n tears in front of them..
feel like venging my anger out but its a show of respect towards them....

Anyway art is the second problem that all of the art students are having too.. It occupy most of our after school time n doesn't give us time to study..
Mr Chicken rice always think that we slow..
To actual facts!!
He always neglect us as he nvr turn up for the extra class he made for us..
He such a irritating person... at least mr loh still makes the effort to help three classes unlike someone who always side the o'level students...


Just going to end here..
Well afew 3 more days till i 16 :)
yay.. lol
Hope next week wouldn't be as worst as last week as i had enough already..