Hello people!!! LOL
Nowadays, seem to b hypo active lately..
Sorry for no update n lately don not online as i was busy n tired...
Okay lets chat about stuff that happens not long ago....
last week was a neutral week. Nothing bad happen
but i broke a record of talking to gf for 5hr but i felt its was just a short while...

OKAY, monday was the most memorable day ever in my life,
lets start with my weirdest arcade exp...
while driving, i still can sms n call people...
i apologise for the misunderstanding... sorry, had too much attention on the road.

Den siew ting, hwee ping & i decided to create a birthday party for my dearest.
Rohaizad came to cp n bought cake with me
den amazingly alot of people came... wow, dennis, jacob, celena, gerlene, liu yun, kang jie n her bf came... O.o
As promise i make her a memorable birthday party. :)
Give her the gift n help her put it on
& we shall nvr forget this day...
went hougang mall n den sent dearest home

Tuesday, had a normal maths mock exam even thought having an exam in the hall is scary... lol
Had oral n the examiner was mr NG aka my art teacher... lol
first one to go as im the time keeper..
had lunch with dearest
den had art
went back home, to my surprise, my cousin came to celebrate my dad birthday..
went to Feast @east to eat buffet..
went drunk at night, walking left n right as if the floor is unstable.. LOL

Okay for today, done housework n stuff... tiring but still can survive
Went to rp to meet dearest so that can go art together
surprisely we had thinking...
saw 4n2 art, they are fast n saw that they are almost done..
wow, must chiong le no slagger le..
Went to hougang mall to return book den went home le..

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Happy sweet sixteen dearest, hope u will have an exciting year ahead.
Hope u lurve the gift n feel happy about the party eventhought its an unforgetful day ever
Don emo k, when there is problems try tell me. smile always k
hope u will b happy being with me.

Yo back to post.
This week, school was normal.. nothing bad happen.
Heard that Mr Soong leave nvss cus of master degree.. Oooo, common trend already le. A lot of people in Singapore are going for masters including Mr Joseph Ng.
Nothing much to say about today..
got result n den mr aw talk to my dad..
Both of them gang up on me & pressurise me.. Sian
Kana insult for english & maths.. wtf
Haix, better work harder le.. Zzzzz
Nowadays, bored at home... nothing much to do
only use com, play ds, eat, sleep & chat on phone to enlighten my mood.

Don know why i seem to felt something bad is going to happen
even when problems are settle
relationship are getting beta
feeling trouble n puzzling at the same time
thinking of precautions
n maintaining a beta life

Yesterday,
did alot of housework
play com in afternoon
watch movie on9.. haix having a boring life as i hav to do stuff at home n unable to go out
waited for my mom to come back from philippine n went to explore terminal2
it has been a long time tat i went there as i only go terminal 1 only... zzz


Today had a bad start, woke up at 9 kane scolding
den after a while, use hp oso scold
don talk much oso scold
play ds oso scold
don know wad my parents wan sia...
went to temple to pray den went to vivo
cus my mom just came back from philippine,
she miss shopping in singapore so she shop almost all the shop and bought alot of stuff...
shop for 2.5hr till my leg cramp... haix
In vivo, i emo abit but went to arcade to brighten myself
Don know wad kept my mind puzzling of stuff
haix just feel stress, tired & so hurtful even after exams

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To dearest one:
Sometimes, i cant control my words
at times words might just blurt out without thinking
I know that its a unforgivable n unforgettable thing
n know that u hate me in the bottom of ur heart n waiting for the right time to say that phrase
I wan u to have a memorable birthday n not let the past to happen again to let u suffer
I know my mistake n i wad i did it was really too much
I sincerely apologise for what i done
I promise not to hurt u again n i meant it
Now im having abit of physical problems
my health is currently deteriorating n felt like dying as i cant breath well
but if there is any problems, i still b there to b ur listener
& support u in ways.
i will always b by ur side encouraging u

Yo back to post.... Zzz
Lately, having the same problems over n over again
Personal problems turn even more challenging n stressful.. Ahhhh! it frustrating
In school, emo n having a hard time breathing... Zzz
don know whether the air is too dense or whatever..
Thx bros for cheering me up with im down even thought I'm the one who laugh n make a fool of myself n make u guys laugh... LOL
N i want to show my gratitude to my friend whom i talk to, he tell me how to calm down & consult me.. i think he is fit to a counselor...

Problem are slowly solved n there is someone on the same boat as me..
She help me all the time & i am grateful to have her as my gf.
Hope we don argue any more already. i hope we can last long & share our sorrow together
We must talk more often & we will understand beta..

okay enough of me saying how emo im this past few days....
now for my MYE result,
all subs pass. YAY!!
But don know y still not happy with it...
now must work even harder.. As i going to aim to get 5 point below for N'level.
cause i only get 8 points which is risky..

Today, health problem getting worst in school but im now getting beta after seeing a chinese doctor who Eeeek medicine... the taste sux but must ren to cure..
went to hougang mall wit gf to eat n walk ard,
saw two mediacorp artist there, i tik they promoting hougang mall n the shop there...
went back home aftertat den played need for speed carbon which lend me..

i want to live a life no problem if that is possible but i know its impossible..
if there is such life,
that person living it will be lucky.

Today,
Had elective module start from 8am
did finish the project tat was needed to be done in just a day.
Watch anime & movies in the com lab to keep zahier, jonathan n me occupied
while the rest of the student just play gta n other online games... LOL
after module, zahier went to get the soccer ball from NCC room den we played soccer n captain ball with some NCC guys..
Went to downtown east to calm my mind by playing arcade and found that my maximum tune skill is improving n on the form to complete the game. but need $$$ money... Haix
afterthat visit gf n walked ard ws n entered the library for research...
& went back home n relax n slp.

Last night, was one of the most emoing night ever felt after a long time,
i cried in my heart, abit tears came out n felt like shouting out loud n punching something to let all my misery out as i cant take it anymore.. AHHH!!!
Told my probs to gf, zul, olivier & dennis, they tried cheering me up as they told me that when i emoed, it will affect them badly.. Sorry guys
now wadever my uncle said is truth
the happiest n hypo person can have the saddest n miserable life of all
I felt pressurise everytime & everywhere i go.
at least there is someone who is as the same boat as me.
i am not emoing because of the insult of my friends gave. So don worry zul its not ur fault.

I am changing for the better n making up for my mistakes i've done
I apologise of wad happen in the past n i never wan it to happen again n affect us again
I didn't meant to lie to u
i really meant my words n assure that in case of urgency i will b there for u
hope u just trust me for another time

Yo back to post
MYE are finally over
no more pressure for the time being
just have to wait for prelim & "N"n "O" lvl
that sure stress.. haix
Today have finally paper : Art.. did ok for prep work
on the final work, have no mood to do at all
got insulted by mrs tay somemore.. hais no motivation to do work well
went out wit gf, dennis & zul to hougang mall to buy gifts
den went to ljs to eat.. when finish eating zul did something bad..(don wan to say)
zul & dennis left aftertat, den went to acc gf to ps..
walk around & talk
den both of us veri tired till we went back le..

i terribly sorry to hurt u
i m irritated of that person to spread the situation out
BAD happenings today,
my heart is crying inside n feel like dying
i just feel tat i not suit to live this life wit tons of misery

Finally the last paper tmr...
can b oso the one that so die wan.. haix
do 5 pieces of prep den need to do alot of stuff... sian ar
Ytd, at home do for awhile that sian go use com oso sian
once sian sometimes i wun talk much den surely veri slpy.. zzzz
today went jb just to follow my dad put petrol den buy some stuff..
sian ar, play ds play com, watch tv & anime n read manga oso sian..
why this weekend so sian... haix
anyway don know whether tmr the guys r going bowling or not..

Nowadays thing are back to normal
but dont know why can get so emotional at times
no probs to solve but need to change my character

At times i make u laugh n happy,
but i seriously apologise that i make u even worst
i meant my word on that night seriously
as it came out from my heart
hope u meant it too

Another bad exam for me
Having no confidence that i can get back my old result for a-maths
the paper was difficult n confusing.. make lots if careless mistake
n realise the way to solve it.
went wit gf to library today
do art prep, find pic from books.
watch anime to cheer myself.
Now felt contented now after talking n saying out how i feel.

Time flies fast nowadays,
had maths n physic paper.
SS sure die cus anyhow do
Nowadays feeling down lately, n i cant help it
althought sometimes, my friends make laugh just to cheer me up.
at home i will feel abit down.
today, went out to library to study
chatted here n there, talking about stuff
i scared of stuff going to happen nxt week
i heard frm people tat something might to me n affect me
it also can b hurtful
but no matter wad i m staying with my plans.

Today is a normal day for me..
Studied maths in morning den had a hair cut
althought my hair at the side r short but the front is still long.. LOL
went bugis n saw alot of things change
didnt study for ss n i tik will sure fail le

Yoyo, back to another post..
today went to cp to play maximum tune 3 n my skills are back... lol
meet gf n pg den rohaizad came late..
Studied maths till headache den my eye turn red... lol
Went back home saw one goldfish die in my fish tank, haix
studied more maths till sian liao...

to end my post,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR SOONG & MRS BRIAN :)